I am running in circles with my weight loss. Each month I think I'm pregnant and so I emotionally eat.. before I know I'm not, and after I find out I'm not.
It's been so sabotaging to me... and I"m sick of it! I'm up 8 lbs from my lowest weight thus far in my weight loss journey... and today I"m back OP... journaling and being "good"... I just want to be pg so bad.. but now that I'm up this much, I DON"T want to be pregnant... till I get back down!
Ugh, I know what you mean. The last time I got on the weight loss bandwagon a few months ago, I was doing so well and then I thought I was pg. Like you, I totally went on an emotional eating spree and then again when I found out I wasn't. I am now up ~18 lbs or so from my very lowest in March. Sad, I know. Granted, those 18 lbs should come off fairly easily once I stay on track (so far so good, this week!), but it still makes me angry to know I worked so hard to get that weight off and then gained it right back.
I just replied to your post.... but I had to add something here too... (replying to your 1st post from Aug 21)... this morning on got on the scale and i was up .6 from last week. Granted I had one and a half REALLY BAD days where I just got out of control... but I tracked points the rest of the week and made some really good choices.... so I was a bit bummed this morning. I was hoping to be down maybe even an ounce or two! Can we be weigh-in and WW partners? Chat often and keep each other accountable? I think it might really help both of us. Each time we go to eat something... remind ourselves that we have to be completely honest w/ each other and confess.... Sounds like motivation to me! (: What do you think?
Here's my recommendation...taking care of yourself doesn't change baby or no baby. Stay on plan because this is healthy pre-pregnancy, during pregnancy, and when breastfeeding. Your baby is counting on you to be able to nourish & sustain his or her life while growing and devloping inside you. Don't use your body as a trash recepticle for junk food. If you are doing WW it only takes about 10 more points a day when pregnant or breastfeeding. If counting cals it's only about 300 more or so. Don't even think about eating more until you have confirmation and the only thing you should probably change when you do is your H20, milk, fruit & veggie, and lean protein intake. The fats should probably stay in the same range. I know it's hard not to get on an emotional rollercoaster every month of "Are we? aren't we?". Just pray through it and know when it's time, it's time.
Okay, I just have to come here and vent this morning. This is probably the first time EVER that I have gone this long (8 days?) without really cheating on my diet. (I had a few bites of birthday cake this weekend, but literally, only a few bites and I got tons of exercise so I don't feel bad about that.)
Anyway, even though I told myself I was going to only weigh myself once a week (on Wednesdays), I jumped on the scale this morning to see my progress, fully expecting the pounds to go down. Blah! I GAINED weight since last Wednesday!! Not much, granted, but still. It's getting disheartening and I'm only < 1 week in. I know that I need to look at long-term goals and that no matter what, eating healthy and getting exercise will be better for me in the long run.
But...all that is so much easier said than done when all I really want right now is to be a mom!! More than anything...and knowing my husband is ready too is just killing me because the only thing holding us back is my weight. I'm just kinda down today about it, and I'm starting to wonder if I'll EVER get rid of all this excess weight.
I am so glad to see your post... I am feeling the same exact way... we went and saw a house we really like yesterday and I think we will put in an offer--which means that we are one step closer to being able to start a family--the only thing then keeping us from having a child is my weight... makes me so sad... and I am scared I will not be able to lose weight cause I seem to gain weight just looking at food?!
But, I have been researching, and women actually LOSE weight when they are pregnant, or at least maintain... you only need to eat an extra 300 calories a day when pregnant, so I think it would feel like a diet for us! I joke that I am eating for triplets right now!! My doctor basically wants us to go into a pregnancy knowing all the risks (my glucose levels, ancestrial traits, etc) and we will deal with things as they come--cause even thin women have issues during pregnancy that you can't predict or avoid...she seemed okay with my weight... and she thought if I took the focus off the scale and put it on being "healthy" (stretching/strength training, eating balanced diet) my weight will go down naturally...
The thing that is hard when your pg (in my experience...) is that it's harder than ever to stay OP. If you think you struggle now w/ eating healthy.. throw in food aversion... pg cravings... and just plain exhaustion... and you will begin to understand why it's better to take some of the weight off before you get pg. (See my reply to Jimmie) It's so worth it to just lose 1 lb. Then another. Then another... until you've all of a sudden lost 10, 15, even 20 lbs!
That's why I'm fighting right now w/ weight loss (what I posted in my original post in this thread) because as soon as I think I'm pregnant... my Weight Watchers goes right out the window. Whether i think it should or not!
I don't mean to be a downer.... I"m trying to encourage you to keep losing and working at it... and you're appreciate the benefits when you get pregnant!
(and if you're like me and gain 15 lbs in water weight... you'll appreciate that you don't look quite as much like a balloon as you would have!) (: (: (:
Thanks for the comment! It makes sense. I am 37 though, so my doctor said to not spend too much time losing weight because she worries about fertility and age-based risks, more than the risks that come with extra weight. We are not going to try to get pregnant until next February though, so in the meantime I am going to try to lose more weight (have lost about 25 lbs on WW so far). I just need to keep the big picture in mind, and not get worried about the occasional gain...
ooo that is a good point! Perfect example of how a variety of circumstances need to be taken into consideration! side note: my dh and I decided we weren't going to try till January of 2007 and in March of 2007 our dd entered the world (: he he.... you might say it was one of those "oops" moments! (:
Anyway.... congrats on the 25 lbs! Even that will make a huge difference... as I'm sure you already know! just physically it's worth it... I know it helps w/ exhaustion to some extent!
Good luck on TTC (: It's such an amazing time. And Feb will be here before you know it! (:
I would recommend you go ahead and start trying to get pregnant right now. Losing 25lbs is a big deal and will help tremendously especially if you are used to and able to stick to a healthy eating regimine. As mentioned before you only need to eat about 300 cals more a day or on WW I believe it's 10 points more per day when pregnant or breastfeeding. Doing this you should probably lose a little more during the 1st trimester and most overweight women should only gain about 10-15lbs during the entire pregnancy. At 37 the risks of Down's syndrome and several other risks double please don't hold off because you're struggling with weight a little bit. Most of the weight related complications can be managed with bedrest, a special diet, and help from your physician. Down's syndrome and birth defects can not be reversed. Pray about it and do what's right for you best of luck!
All I can say to you... is WW works. It's worked for me multiple times... I just had to be honest and truly track every bite that went into my mouth. The part that was hard mentally, was each week only seeing the scale go down 1 or .8 but what happens (believe it or not (: !!!) is 1+1 =2 and 2+2 = 4 and pretty soon I was 20 lbs lighter... just by losing 1 lb at a time! And even gaining some weeks. SO don't be discouraged! If you're honest and journal and stay w/in your points.... you WILL see change and people will see it too!
And it is SOOOOO worth it when you get pregnant... because PG weight is even harder to get off! (believe me I know!) so starting out at a lower weight (besides all the health benefits) makes it easier to lose weigh the next time around!
I live in the middle of nowhere, North Dakota. We have ONE hospital in our town and one small hospital 25 miles away. That's it. Nothing special. My friend back home emailed me today to show me the new birth center at the hospital where she's going to give birth. Check this out: http://www.saintsok.com/internet/home/saintsok.nsf/31060168df94973f...
Ahhh, so jealous! We have NOTHING like that up here!!!