I've been absent from Blog to Lose for over a year. If you look at my old posts, you would know that I've never been a prolific blogger or a successful 'loser'. In between my infrequent posts, I have been reading many people's posts here to get inspired and to keep myself hopeful. And then I disappeared in 2009 because well, it really was a bad year weight-wise for me, and you know the worse one binges, the less one reports back.
Since mid-year last year, I've started workin
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Added by Becca on May 5, 2010 at 11:30am —
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I'm packing right now and I'll be leaving home to study abroad (kind of) for the next 4.5months. I plan to get serious starting this Monday.
I plan to spend next Mon-Wed figuring out my strategy.
I feel bad for disappearing for so long. Hope to see you all again!
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Added by Becca on February 14, 2009 at 12:51pm —
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OK, I know it seems like I've disappeared. I've actually just been doing really badly but I've still been stalking your blogs.
The truth is, I'm just not ready. It's as simple as that. Throughout my years, I've gone with up and down phases and I can usually feel when I'm ready to kickstart something (namely losing weight, or whatever needs to get done in life.) Something triggers my 'it's time to lose weight' radar; my brain forms all sorts of plans; I feel 'high' and motivated.
But for the pa…
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Added by Becca on January 5, 2009 at 1:30am —
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My right arm is still sore from playing badminton on Tuesday. And my thighs and butt are sort from yesterday's walking. I am seriously unfit. I hate how sore muscles lets me feel justified to NOT workout, even though I know I really should do some sort of exercise everyday.
What do you do if your muscles hurt from the days before? Do you just exercise anyway? And is there a way to make the soreness go away faster?
The good news is that I have a yoga class tomorrow (and I must go since I'm meet…
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Added by Becca on December 11, 2008 at 9:11am —
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It's only 12:22pm now, and I'm trying to gear myself up to go exercise. OK, just keep thinking,
Exercise is fun. Exercise is fun. Exercise =burn fat.
OK, I'm going to MAKE myself move. Report back later!
Edited @ 00:50am 11Dec08
Wow, after not exercising for three weeks, I have gone seriously out of shape. I can hardly walk up the hill and couldn't even run for 1 minute. I really need to build up some stamina again!
Intake @00:50am 11Dec08
Pear =130
Mushroom broth =10
Junk food (dried seawee…
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Added by Becca on December 10, 2008 at 1:16pm —
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So after yesterday's disastrous start, today started off much better. I woke up at 12:30pm and had to read the news and prepare for my 3pm interview so I didn't even have time to eat a breakfast (-bad, I know.) I got home at 5:30pm and had an early dinner at 6pm so my body could digest some of the food before I went to the weekly 'social badminton' session at the clubhouse next to my building at 9:30pm. I was somewhat motivated today so I even spent half an hour cycling in the gym before playing…
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Added by Becca on December 9, 2008 at 12:00pm —
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So before my exam, I had all these great plans of getting organised for losing weight and just life in general. And of course, I woke up this morning and did my usual thing: rewatch tv episodes, surfed the internet and binged on carbs.
Intake @ 14:45pm 08Dec08:
Yogurt =50
Chicken broth =5
Bread x2 =300
Crackers =520
Imitation crab =30
Total =905cal
Edited @ 03:45am 09Dec08
What a complete disaster. I had my normal veggie pot and an orange for dinner. Then everything continued to go downhill.
C…
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Added by Becca on December 8, 2008 at 2:30pm —
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The exam was horrible. It was all MCs so I spent 80% of the time doing guess-work, which I totally suck at. That was for 6 hours.
Braindead.
Can't think.
Need coherent thoughts.
Intake @ 23:16pm 07Dec08
Pear =100
Apple =120
Japanese dinner, mostly sashimi =500
Orange =120
Junk food (seaweed, dry squid) =100
Bread x2 =160
Total =1100cal
Outtake: 0
Right, going to check out next week's yoga schedule now. I really want to kick start some cardio again, together with some yoga.
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Added by Becca on December 7, 2008 at 10:30am —
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I have to wake up at 6am for a 6 hr exam (9am-5pm with lunch break) tomorrow. For an exam I have not studied enough for and can't remember even the most basic facts.
I've spent the whole day today tense and wanting to burst into tears.
What I'm really mad at is myself. I should have studied harder. Why didn't I study harder? Because I spent most of my time in the past few months binging, then feeling depressed about binging. Some nights I spend the whole of 9pm-3am (that's after dinner) bingin…
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Added by Becca on December 6, 2008 at 7:00am —
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The last two days were bad. After posting here on Tues night/ Wed dawn, I was filled with hope and determination. On Wed, I was very good during the daytime. I stuck to my plan and didn't binge. But when nighttime came, I couldn't resist. I binged on over 1500cal of bread, cereal and crackers at 2am. I was so ashamed and disappointed, and couldn't get over it so the binging continued into Thur afternoon, Thur night...... Why the heck did I need to eat 3000cal everyday for the past two weeks? The…
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Added by Becca on December 5, 2008 at 3:30pm —
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- and that's saying a lot, considering I've been binge-eating for the past few years.
Tomorrow is a new day. I must do this to help myself. If I can't love myself, who will?
So let's be foward-looking, because looking back to all the binges just makes me depressed and it turns into an ugly downward cycle.
PLAN starting tomorrow:
1. Cut out all 'dry' carbs for the next 2 weeks.
2. Consume under 1000cals per day. (For the foreseeable future.)
3. No eating after 9pm. (Except for late dinner on W…
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Added by Becca on December 2, 2008 at 3:30pm —
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