Miss Purple's Blog (3)

Today I realized that there is something totally schizophrenic about my behavior with food. I know that if I eat a little bit more than I should, that I will definitely gain weight. Yet, I feel that if I abstain from eating that little bit more, nothing will happen. It will not be worth it - the effort is so great, and the results are nonexistent. I think, what's another bite of that? An extra swig of that? Finishing off my husband's uneaten portion? It seems like such a small thing it can't p… Continue

I'm a visual person - I learn when I see things, I register and remember things when I can visualize them. This is why the scale has been such an addiciction for me - I needed to SEE a number, to have a number to associate with myself, to tack onto myself, to compartmentalize and file away "me" for today. For example, today I AM 184. But the scale, and those clear, precise numbers, have also been my downfall. Last week, I tried so hard. I avoided temptation, I counted my calories and stayed wit… Continue

I'm going to do it this time. It never worked before, but it will this time. And I need to crowd out all the negative feelings and voices with new, positive affirmations. I need to talk myself into it. I will tell myself: ~ Every decision counts. ~ I WILL see those numbers go down. ~ I can look smashing ~ I will forgo the food now - it will not disappear - I will eat it later when I'm thin ~ Others have done it. It is possible. I will do it too. I will hold myself accountable to this blog. E… Continue