179.5...what the hell am I doing? I have been so out of whack lately!

I have let myself get back up to 179.5. I was at 172.5...ugh. I am trying to get under control before it gets any worse. I am not sure what is up with me lately. I have been in a funky, down mood and my eating has been out of control. I have been slipping up more and my portions are growing. Yesterday, I ate way to much trail mix and I wasn't even hungry and I had an apple in the fridge that I had brought from home. I did go the the gym yesterday and get a good work out but I have only been going twice a week for the past month or so instead of my 4 days a week that I was going. I was also walking with my kids in the stroller but now that it is cold, I have no desire to walk, not to mention that it is dark when I get home now. I guess I am going to have to start from square one and measure everything again and re-dedicate myself to the plan. I also thought about attending meetings, I do online right now but money is tight so maybe I can start meetings after the first of the year. Any words of wisdom....I need a good kick in the butt....especially with Thanksgiving next week!

Here is my food plan for today, except for dinner(I took turkey brats out of the freezer but past that I am not sure yet)

high fiber toast with rf peanut butter - 3
fiber one bar - 2
string cheese - 1
spinach lazagna(sp?) and a grapefruit - 7
apple - 1

Total so far - 14 (9 left)