Goodbye 2008

As I look back on 2008. I can't really think of anything to memorable that happened. We didn't go on any big fancy trips, didn't make any big purchases or have anything major happen. I think I will remember 2008 as the year I took care of myself. For once in my life I focused on me and my needs and not everyone else. I decided I wanted to lose weight, and I did. I decided I wanted to run a 5k, and I did. I decided I wanted to go back to school, and I did. So I guess it was a pretty good year because I actually crossed off some New Years Resolution for once. It feels so good to put your mind to do something and then actually follow through with it.

Now with a new year ahead of me and being pregnant, I am trying to find out what my New Years Resolutions are. I am feeling kind of dazzed and confused. Like I don't know where I fit in. I now need to gain weight. I don't feel like exercising at all. I want to lay down as much as possible. I feel lazy. It is just all so confusing to me. I have been depressed lately. I want so bad to be happy and be happy to be having this baby. I always thought I would have four kids, so it fits into that plan. I guess with this last year focusing on taking care of myself has made me a little selfish and I still want to be Shanna the person, not just a wife and a mom.