I am at peace with myself and my body. Most of my life has not been lived here, but, it feels great!
My calorie count today was 2150, a little over my goal, but I made mostly good choices. I remembered to eat snacks so I wouldn't starve for the next meal. I ate at a BBQ. But, instead of going for everything that I used too because it was there, I stuck with a few good things, 1 cookie, and 1/2 soda. I felt full from lunch, but not guilty. I had a healthy dinner to balance out the sugar-filled foods at lunch.
I worked out after work..... and it actually felt good. This never happens to this extent. I usually enjoy Strength training, but I go because that's just what I do, not because I like it.....because most days I don't. At the end of working my legs (25 min. lifting), I biked on the recumbent for 5 minutes. But, it felt so good, so relaxing, so euphoric, that I went for another 5.......... I used the time to decompress school (not stressful, but always something else to do), and focus on how I was going to cook dinner and what I would do tonight to enjoy myself. It worked. And it felt GREAT!!!
I made dinner, we watched an hour of a show we're stuck on right now from Netflix (Six Feet Under), and I went for a walk afterwards (because it's what I do). I was enjoying the outdoors so much that I got up the gumption to mow the lawn and stop by to say hi to a neighbor.
Here's why tonight was great:
- I did what my body and mind felt like doing all afternoon.
- My body needed to endure physical labor (strength train) to allow my mind to settle. And, I did it.
- My body needed to move after 1 hour t.v. to allow my mind to think again. And, I did it.
- I wanted to feel accomplished with my house, so I mowed the lawn and did the trash.
- I wanted to share my thoughts, so I blogged.
I used to sit on the couch and watch t.v./movies for hours at night thinking that was helping me relax. but, I knew it wasn't. I'd often sit there wanting to move, wanting to be active, wanting to read, wanting to clean, whatever..... but I didn't. I didn't listen to my body before.
What an amazing feeling when I do listen to my body and live a fulfilling life! I am truly convinced that if I continue to seek life like this, that even if my calories fluctuate between 1700-2400, that I will lose weight. Not because I'm really focused on the numbers, but because I'm finding a balance with my body.
*I'm not all about inner peace, I believe true peace comes from God alone, but what a gift he has given us to be able to understand what our body's need and want.
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