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Starting Jenny Craig today 12/6/09
I am depressed. I weigh more than I ever have before and it's hard not feeling like everyone is staring at my weight gain, even if it's only in my head. During my process of dealing with thyroid cancer this summer, and the weight gain after having my thyroid removed, I think I gave myself an out on taking care of myself and eating right. I kept telling myself, "Well you have no working metabolism anyway. You might as well eat the good stuff if anything will make you gain weight." The only person I cheated was myself. Now that the medicine is stabilizing and my metabolism should be where it needs to be, I have 50 pounds to lose. 50!! I'm 5'1" so that's really a lot for me. I am so mad at myself for letting it get this out of hand.
I need to stop beating myself up about it though and just do what I need to do. I am married now, so the stress of the wedding is over. I graduate in April, so the stress of school will be over soon. But what I've really realized is that something will always be happening in my life to cause stress, so that can't be a reason to eat unhealthy and avoid exercising due to being "tired". I am ready to take care of me and make myself a priority. I signed up for Jenny Craig yesterday. Today is my first day. I'm hopeful and determined.
I need to stop beating myself up about it though and just do what I need to do. I am married now, so the stress of the wedding is over. I graduate in April, so the stress of school will be over soon. But what I've really realized is that something will always be happening in my life to cause stress, so that can't be a reason to eat unhealthy and avoid exercising due to being "tired". I am ready to take care of me and make myself a priority. I signed up for Jenny Craig yesterday. Today is my first day. I'm hopeful and determined.
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Comment by Kelly on December 6, 2009 at 8:09pm -
Thanks ladies I really appreciate all the support!!
Debi, interesting website!! I'm currently just taking synthroid for my thyroid issues, so I'll definitely be reading up more on that!
Elaine, you have gorgeous dogs!!
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Comment by Elaine on December 6, 2009 at 8:06pm -
Your post resonated with me! I, too, gained a ton of weight this summer and was very depressed with myself. First of all, congratulations on overcoming thyroid cancer. Second, congrats on taking the first step with Jenny Craig. Keep us posted on your progress.
You are more than the number on the scale. No one, and no amount of weight, can take away internal beauty, which creates external beauty. Love yourself, love your body, and the rest will follow.
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Comment by Debi on December 6, 2009 at 2:57pm -
Kelly - Congratulate yourself on taking a step towards what you want. What really helps me is to remember that my past is my past. The best place for it is in the past. I can't change it. What I can do to choose to move toward what I want.
I too have a thyroid issue. I found this really cool book Called "Stop the Thyroid Madness". That has helped me. They also have a website. http://www.stopthethyroidmadness.com Maybe it will help you too.
I believe in you - Debi
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