Sweet or Sour?

Well here's the deal.

My first days back in a leotard haven't been terribly bad. I'm not at all happy with how I LOOK or FEEL.

Today at lunch I have no idea why I decided to eat the bag of Baked Cheetos my friend offered me. I didn't think first and now I'm regretting it. I also don't know why I accepted Pringles in between rehearsals tonight. Didn't think again I guess.

Now I'm changing things though. (Or I'm going to try to.) My friend has gone the past few days without eating sugars. (ie. no candy, cookies, cake, soda...) She asked me to join her in this challenge and I said I would. I'm not sure how things will go because I LOVE sweets, but I really need to do this for myself. I hope I can.

Right now I'm exhausted after dance and a tough day at school. I've been doing homework for ages and still have some left. I'm tired and know I just need sleep but I know that I can't go to bed until my homework is done. Sometimes I worry that I'm not actually experiencing my life, but rather just zooming through it. I'm worried, though, that if I take the time to sit down and look at myself and my life and those around me, things will never speed up again and I'll have to actually feel and work through problems and stuff. Does that make any sense?

I don't know I guess I'm just in a bit of a funk.
Thanks for being there for me, everyone. I think it just helps me to type things up and see them.

Love,
D