6/1/08

I am really excited to get started here. This looks like a great website that will offer a lot of support.

Recently I have gained about 30 pounds. I'm starting to get really upset about the way that my body feels. I don't feel connected to it anymore. I just stuff food and drink in there without thinking about that it will make my body feel. I used to be very healthy and before I put something in my mouth I would think "is this going to make me feel good, healthy, and light or bloated, gassy, and fat." If it was the latter, then I just wouldn't eat it. Nowadays, I just stuff any old thing down my pie hole. Also, I'm definitely consuming a lot of alchohol these days, and we all know that if it's not in moderation, it's bad for your liver, but also, it makes me eat more. So that's just got to change.

I haven't exercized regularly in a while, but I've been missing it lately. I miss feeling strong and capable. I miss knowing that I can trust my body. So I'm hoping that when I get started again I have some muscle recognition, but even if I don't, I feel pretty sure that I can find the motivation to stick to it. I will just need some support.

So I've already made one change - right now I am taking some time off work so I don't have to get up at a specific time so I have been sleeping until odd hours and due to that I have not had a regular eating pattern for the last 2 months. Well, that's changing ! Alarm is set for 9 am for everday (including weekends). That is the perfect time to get up, get dressed for the gym, have a cup of tea...and then by the time I get over to the gym, the pre-work workout bunch will be out of there.

I am going to try to post daily and above all, to be absolutely honest here about what I am eating and what I'm doing to stay active.

First weigh-in TOMORROW! Yikes!