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Note to self: Cake does not fix grief
This week has been rough for me. I really did have a wonderful birthday weekend, but the real world is crashing down hard right now. I have to take this Friday off of work to travel to the funeral of a close family member. I've been shutting out the emotion, just trying to get through my work day, but it is getting harder and harder as the funeral approaches.
Yesterday, all of the emotion just started crashing down on me and I had no idea how I was going to get through the day. Co-workers attempts to be sympathetic just made it harder for me to maintain my composure. So how did I cope? By buying a big piece of carrot cake and drowning my sorrows. It sounds so stupid in retrospect. Afterward, I just felt sick. I could barely touch my dinner.
I packed myself a real lunch today, and so far I haven't had the urge to bury my face in something sugary, but this is very, very hard.
Yesterday, all of the emotion just started crashing down on me and I had no idea how I was going to get through the day. Co-workers attempts to be sympathetic just made it harder for me to maintain my composure. So how did I cope? By buying a big piece of carrot cake and drowning my sorrows. It sounds so stupid in retrospect. Afterward, I just felt sick. I could barely touch my dinner.
I packed myself a real lunch today, and so far I haven't had the urge to bury my face in something sugary, but this is very, very hard.
5 Comments
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Comment by Roxi on June 11, 2008 at 5:00pm - Sorry about your rough week. Sometimes these things happen and our diets become the last things on our minds - it's understandable. But it sounds like you've got it under control now. You're doing great!
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Comment by Arlene on June 11, 2008 at 5:04pm - Sorry to hear about your loss, but your initial reaction is completely understandable. I've been known to seek solace in cake, too ... for a lot less than a death in the family. Just keep in mind the goal you're trying to reach. That might make it a little easier for you to stay on track.
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Comment by Tricia on June 11, 2008 at 5:47pm - I'm very sorry about your loss. Concentrate on dealing with your emotions right now...and don't worry about the cake!
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Comment by Honi on June 11, 2008 at 6:01pm - ohhh boy I can relate.. so you ate cake and you learned that like you said cake does not take care of grief.. good lesson to learn.. I am so sorry for that grief.. it is very hard.. I know.. let yourself feel sad and if you need to cry by all means do.. forget composure.. sometimes tears are such a wonderful release... wishing you peace at this difficult time..
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Comment by Danielle on June 13, 2008 at 2:22pm - O I am so sorry for your loss. I just went through this eating/grieving/family gathering time and the scale will show this week, I just know it... ): Just hang in there and take the time to grieve and appreciate your family and just start back next week. We'll all still be here!
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