What was I thinking??

Ok, so I have discovered that I have a major problem with portion control... If I buy something that is prepackaged and it says "you can eat this much for this many points" I do just fine. Case and point... I have been buying the prepackaged cups of WW ice cream. They vary between 2-3 points per serving, which is plenty enough. Well, for two cups is about $4.00 at my local Wal-Mart, which is a little pricey. So I looked to a half gallon that I could just dip out one serving at a time and save a little money. BIG MISTAKE! First of all, having my two little cups and knowing that I only had two cups made me a little more picky about when I actually wanted to treat myself and eat them. Having this half gallon. I know I can eat it whenever I want, because I can just get more later. Second thing, after eating one serving, I find myself going back for another, and another. Clearly, this wasn't my best move. I have learned from my mistake, and next time I go shopping, I will be getting my two little cups again, even if they do cost more. lol

I will just flat out tell you that these past few days have not been good for me. I have not eat right at all. I have tried to make good decisions, but have been tempted and weak, and have not been very choosy about what I am putting in my mouth. I have felt like crap, and I know it's because of the way I have been eating. I read last night about how people sometimes stop just short of reaching thier goal, and then they always wonder what would have been. I feel like that is me. I am so close to my happy ending, and knowing that, I am getting comfortable and letting myself slide a little. I don't know what to do to change those feelings, but I don't want to be SOOO close and give up. I need to get my motivation back in gear and quit messing around!! This isn't me... this isn't what I have learned... what am I doing?? I am going to make a goal list for the next month. That will give me something to look forward to, and hopefully give me a little motivation to attain my goal.

June 22 - July 22
-Reach my WW Goal Weight of 160
-Reach the weight of 155 by July 22
-Walk (or exercise) at least 4 days each week
-Commit to not taking BLT's and be very picky about what I eat
-No more playing around... remember what you want! You can get there!!