Sorry for the "swearing", but seriously! So my last post was in agony about going to my first bridal fitting, and IT FIT (thank GOD!). It was HUGE around the bust, but they are going to take it in. It was weird, and help me out any brides/former brides out there, but I didn't slip it on and go "oooO! i look so beautiful"...I was more like "o, its wrinkled and fits weird" and left disappointed! I know they they haven't pressed it yet, and will be steaming/pressing it prior to the big day, but it… Continue

I'm so NERVOUS right now! I'm about to go try on my wedding gown, and Im so terrified it won't fit. I've gained abuot 5 pounds since I was measured and ordered it, but I almost couldn't sleep last night worrying about it!! GRRR! THen the fiancee and I had a serious talk, and he's worried about my self esteem and how down I get about myself and my weight. He thinks I'm foxy no matter what the weight, but you all know that when you don't feel sassy then you don't act sassy.... I wish I could just… Continue

1.4 pounds last week... and my new method of not stressing so much about getting all the veggies in and all that really worked. I even ate out 2x and ate cake too...the difference being that I actually COUNTED this time! I have to say that I am very proud of myself! On the flip side...some very very intense work stress caused me to eat a LOT today. One of those days where you dont eat all day, then have 3 glasses of wine, a fiber one bar, trail mix, ww ice cream sandwich, vegetarian taco salad,… Continue

The above words were what I heard and felt as I walked home today. Don't u hate that when u can FEEL your body bouncing? Humph! When I have those mini realizations I get so sad and lonely for my 128 days... now I'm 171 or so so u can imagine what that does to a girl's self esteem! So, other than that today was a good day! I did grab a handful of those darn M&Ms again (esterday twix, today M&Ms) but instead of throwing in the towel I estimated my points (4) and actually counted it! That i… Continue

I think that being so TIRED all the time is the worst part about all this weight i've gained (well, besides the lower self esteem, oh, and the new wardrobe, and also the one comment "did you have a baby"? OuCh!!). So yes, I'm so tired...like dragging myself along tired. Work is crazy, I'm a sp. ed teacher so I'm going going going...like literally sit down for lunch and that's about it. Today I brought a healthy lunch..soup and salad, but I wanted something sweet so I bowed out and bought a twix… Continue